Pride

Well, this is something that I have not felt about myself in quite some time, but last night it hit me, and I am finding it hard to not have a smile on my face. I have been very conscious that the other women in my class are much better counselors than I am and I have been feeling rather insecure. I am feeling so much better after my tape that I showed last night. My professor spoke with me after my presentation and told me that he would prefer that I bring my "crappy" work to school so that he can help me grow...he said that the tape I showed yesterday was very well done...much further in the learning process than he expected to see and that "I got it". I am beaming with pride for myself for the first time in ages...I am proud that I get it...especially since I was doubting myself yet again on what my career choice is. I have always wanted to be a counselor, but I doubt myself so often. I think that just his reinforcement that I can do it, that I AM doing it, helps me realize that the other girls in the class are not way better than me, that I am right there with them and I do not have to worry about looking like a major failure in front of them. That is my next big task...SELF ESTEEM!!! I stink at that one :)