Awful Dream

Jonathan and I fight like cats and dogs and we seem to agree on about 5% of everything, but I love him like crazy. I guess I was not really realizing or respecting the amount of love I have for him until last night. I had an awful dream that he had an affair and he actually left me. Now, this is something that I really do not imagine him ever doing, but it scared the shit out of me. It was one of those dreams that wake you up sweating and in tears. It did not help that he was not here when it happened either, which makes for even more nerves. Anyway, it was so realistic and I really felt that I had lost him. Gives me some new perspective on how I need to change the way I talk to him and treat him...even though he drives me crazy :)