What is it with people?

I am just wondering what has happened to people over time...why is is suddenly okay to have affairs and no one question about it??? I ask this because a family member of mine was married for many years and over those years we know for a fact that he was having at least one affair...now, he is divorced and no one seemed disappointed in the fact that he was unfaithful, but me. Anyway, now he is cheating or looking to cheat on the lady he was unfaithful with, and yet again, no one seems to find this upsetting, except me. I get the "she should have known, leopards don't change their spots" but seriously, how is it that this is okay? I am so disappointed and it makes it very difficult for me to be around people who do not respect the commitments that are involved in a relationship. The way I see it, why can't you just get out of the relationship if you are so unhappy that you must seek another to "fulfill" what you are looking for?

Now, going along with my inability to understand people...why do people have so little respect for the health of my baby when I have specifically explained what cannot happen around him? Two of my family members who live out of town came in this weekend...they both smoke...I told them before coming down that they will not be able to smoke anywhere near Micah due to his health...as a matter of fact, they could not smell like smoke when they got around him. So, I go to pick up my uncle at the airport on Friday, and guess where I find him? Outside SMOKING!!! He still had not gotten his suitcase and then he went back in to get it, and sure enough, he SMOKED ANOTHER CIGARETTE before getting into my car! Now, I am not a confrontational person, so I blew it off, but my windows did get rolled down until the smell subsided...I had to have major heat blowing on Micah in the back because I did not want him to get even sicker! I had no problem at Disney last December telling someone he could not smoke in the area we were in, but family is another story, I don't want to cause turmoil. Anyway, later that night, we were out for dinner and sure enough, they could not wait to get outside to smoke AGAIN! Guess where? Right at the front door, so when we opened the door to leave, my family got to inhale massive amounts of smoke. I am so disappointed. It is hard to be really upset with my grandma, since she is 80 years old, but I really think my uncle could try to understand and respect the health of my baby a bit more.

Anyway, that is it. I just don't understand the fact that some people are so incredibly self absorbed!

Long time, no posting

Well, I am finding myself more and more stressed out over the last week since I returned home from vacation. This vacation actually was enjoyable and though I got upset with the kids for silly things (like ruining things in the hotel) it was generally a really good trip. Then we got home. I have been so darn tired and I just do not know how to get myself together. I have not been able to get anything done and I just feel so run down. I am sure that Micah's stomach bug did not help me any, but Jonathan is on my last nerve. He is a really great guy who works really hard for our family, but sometimes I feel that he just puts his job way before the family and it is so upsetting to me. I get that he needs his job for a variety of reasons: health insurance, our house, our vacations, food etc. but it seems to me that sometimes he just does not understand that I need a little more too. He leaves to go out of the country often, leaving me with three kids alone and when he is in town, he just does not get why I might need some alone time. The thing that just ticked me off today was when he came downstairs to talk to me about what day of the week would be best for me for him to leave, I tell him, and he totally disregards what I say and does the opposite. That is fine if he wants to make the decision on what day to leave, but don't bother asking me what is best for me if it makes not one bit of difference.

Anyway, sorry to be so angry, but I do feel better now that I have written it down.

Happy New Year and here is to me posting mostly positive this year :)