Selfish???

I am sitting here wondering if I am a selfish person for wanting just one day to go by where I do not have to take care of someone other than myself or my kids. I sit here and realize that someone is always wanting something from me, be it someone to listen to while they complain or retell stories of years past. Don't get me wrong, I love to listen to others and to help others, that is the profession that I am in, but what I want is the opportunity for those who are close to me to actually do the same for me. It does not seem to matter to many of the other people in my life that I have had a really bad year--yes it has been great welcoming Micah into my life, but it has been really hard for me too. There are some in my life who are willing to listen to me...but I am really bothered by others who cannot do for me what I have done for them year after year after year. I sit and struggle through my life daily and I do everything I can to make it day by day without crying (which is not often). Sorry about the whining, but I feel so much better now...well, a little better that is.

My first entry

I do not really expect that anyone will read this particular blog. I am going to use this space to write about my life and how I seem to fit into this world. There is nothing that seems to pull me in so many directions than my family. I will use this space to write about me--something that I forget to do almost all the time. I have no problems talking about my kids or my family, but I always forget to talk about myself--hopefully this will help keep my brain healthy! I will actually use this as a journal into my life--not really exciting stuff, sorry.

Samantha